I haven't been in the mood to post lately. My life has just been one big train wreck after another. I'm so exausted from trying to cut corners from disaster that I can't save myself from the rest of them. I have now run a fever and collasped my mind under the stress of school. I know, my followers, that I have let you down.
No pictures
No jokes.
No rantings
No secrets.
Just this. These reminents of a tired and sad girl. I don't think I'll make it until christmas. Staring at walls and watching the glow of a television screen from your neighbor's windows. So dead. I just want to fast forward through school and right to vacation. I can't stand to bring myself in front of my classmates. So lifeless and plain. So stripped down of emotion and creativity. I have exams and tests that I am not ready for. I had to postpone my 1st degree black belt graduation because I'm dead. The only thing that keeps me going is the thoughts of the future, but now I fail to see them. My mind is as blank and unbearing as I was at science class today. I might post again, and I might not. I might delete my life on this blog with the click of a button as I do when I escape reality. Reality. I can't go back there. There is no escape. Only Socrates. Whom I am not. I am just a stupid thirteen year old girl posing as this great prophet and ranting about nothing important. I am nothing. So blank. So gone. Forget me, forget all of this
Whisper in the yard and turn the trees all into toys
lay there on the ground and turn the dirt into your joy
from what I see and what I know, it's all been boring lately
so I suggest we trade a question mark in for a maybe
time your riddles right and make a point that has no sense
make sure that you are smiling and that the moneys been well spent
innocence and ignorence, it all goes hand in hand
I'm not sure that I'm right but I hope you'll understand
I hope that you're still searching for the start that has no end
and all the plastic people that have now become your friends
befor eyou start to drift
and your soul begins to scream
I wanted to tell you
that you're listening to a dream.
Sincerly or not, the girl.
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2 comments:
lol, *does a little spin dance move* ha ha!
You sound so deppresed I almost cry... But I must be happy ^_^ !!!
Your friends were there for you before I ever was... I wished I had entered you life sooner... *hangs head*... But I'm here now and I hope thats good enough... Right now I am trying to read and respond to every post so... YEY ^_^
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